Unrequited Pain

Why, O’ Mother – you gave me life

you fill my existence with sordid strife.

Why do you bother by promises spoken,

your pledges made – only to be broken?

To see them take you over and over again

my tears on my face – a permanent stain.

I love you so much but do not understand

my life is nothing like I woulda planned.

Oh, Mom – I love you, through your sins I am led,

when sick, it’s your presence I seek in your bed.

I’m the little girl missing, a ghost in your dreams

they keep taking you from me, hear my screams.

You have loved me well, but taught me hurt

now my own curse, with trouble I flirt.

How did it ever get to be so bad?

Why am I numb, when I should be sad?

Mom, please for once can you help me just feel?

my mind is spinning on a ferris wheel

I’m sick of this ride, I just wanna get off

My terrified screams – at them you just scoff.

Now I’m beginning to see how you taught me well

it’s all making sense now, as you sit in your cell

I cannot condone how you reason Life out

can you not see…do you not doubt… ?

Why, Mama, why…why was I born?

Why? all my life, from your arms I was torn?

And because you could not accept the truth

I finally grew up - and you missed my youth.

We both face the Piper and face it alone

My head’s in my hands, and I let out a groan

My life’s just starting, I’ll turn it around

I’m your little girl lost, and want to be found.

This poem is dedicated to Tori Scott, whose strength and grit will

help her experience success in whatever she pursues in her Life.